I am Grateful: 7/26/2017

Jul. 26th, 2017 09:30 pm
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I am grateful for and love myself.  I'm here, and experiencing this world.  I chose to be here, and live this life, and I love it.

I am grateful for and love my clients.  They are the best people most of the time.

I am grateful for and love my home.  It is exactly what I wanted, now it's time to let it go for something new.

I am grateful for and love my career.  It's been a wild ride, and I love the work.

I am grateful for and love new possibilities. I've been updating my resume on job search sites.

I am grateful for and love life's lessons.  Eating too much is something I need to work on.

I am grateful for and love Amazon Prime.  It allows me to find guided meditations and download them for free.

I am grateful for and love Flexibility.  When you are not booked at work, especially at the beginning or end, you can do other things.

I am grateful for and love my roommate's cooking.  She made an awesome Sheppard's Pie with Duck.

I am grateful for and love my cat.  I believe when we move, she's going to enjoy some alone time.

I had a wonderful day yesterday working with my clients and updating my resume.

Thngs that make you go hmmmm....

Jul. 26th, 2017 06:42 am
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I have been a massage therapist for seven years.  I've worked for several people, I've done business on my own, I've been in between.  This is the first time since I went to school for massage that I have done a career change.  Most of my clients are very understanding, but a bit put out that I am planning on leaving.  But I have to take care of me first, which means I have to go.  I have to take the opportunity by the throat and ride with it.  It's going to push the boundaries of my comfort zone, but I believe that the payoff will be so worth it. 

This is also a time of transition for me.   This will be the first time that I have chosen to live on my own.  This will the first time that I have chosen to walk my own path.  To walk and stand in my own power, and own my own life.  This is a game changer for me.  I am not quite sure where I am going, but I know that I am going.  I also know that there will be some people that will not be happy with the choice that I am making.  That it may indeed rock people's world.

My roommate said that most everyone that has come to this level in the circle has had some major life changing event.  That relationships have fallen apart, and things have changed radically.  While I hope that this particular relationship survives and thrives, I can only own my part of it, and rest is up to her.  Personally I believe that she can stand in her own power, and succeed in holding this apartment on her own, but she'll have to step out of her shadow and out of hiding to do so.

I am updating my resume.  I am manifesting a new job and career, as well as a new home.  It will come.  And a new journey for me awaits.

I am Grateful: 7/24/2017

Jul. 24th, 2017 08:53 pm
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love my affirmations.  I am already starting to see a difference in how I am interacting with people, and how they are interacting with me.

I am grateful for and love my days off.  I get so much done on days off, or I can just blah.  It's all good.

I am grateful for and love being in the "tuned in, tapped on" zone.  I had a project that needed doing, and I changed gears a little bit, but once I sat down, and started working it came together quite beautifully.

I am grateful for and love my cat.  I get to play with her with my shadows.  She tries to catch my shadows kinda like the red laser dot.

I am grateful for and love the metro transit.  When I want to take things slow, read a chapter, and take things easy going some where, I take the bus.  Because you not going really fast when taking the bus.  Well most of the buses I've been do speed, but we have to stop.

I am grateful for and love McDonald's.  I really wanted some comfort food, and I went and got comfort food, and it was SOOOOO good.

I am grateful for and love my home.  I love the fact that I have hardwood floors, lots of natural light, and odd dreams of my landlord in the nude (that happened last night. weird).

I am grateful for for and love my location.  Seriously, there's a whole foods in bike riding distance and 3 co-ops, work is 4 blocks away.  I can get to several shopping areas by one or two buses, and wow, it's nice.

I am grateful for and love my bed.  It's soft and comfortable, and sighs.

I am grateful for and love the fact I currently don't get internet again in my room.  I get more things done, when I don't have access.

I am grateful for and love Fan Fiction.  There's a Rough Challenge going on right now.   I am enjoying the NCIS, SG1 stories being written, though I'm waiting for the NCIS Harry Potter to be updated.

As you can see, awesome day, and I got to bed before 12 midnight. AWESOME!  It smells like Earth and Rain this morning.

Late Start...7/24/2017

Jul. 24th, 2017 12:55 am
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I had a late start this morning, but it was totally awesome, because it was comfortable, and nice, and soft, and ooo...I'm just going to hang out here in my nice soft bed.  I did get up, but later than I intended.  Maybe I should find a place that is like between 60-80 degrees as a high and 50-60 as a low on average kinda place to live.  I could have my windows open all the time, and I could have a nice comfortable bed, that would try and snuggle me all day.   Though it would nice to have another body to snuggle with too. 

Today is an unexpected day off, no class tonight, because my teacher and friend is currently off doing things really early today that she wasn't expecting, so she didn't want to shirk on the teaching and be tired, so we moved the day to tomorrow this week. 

Ritual yesterday was very beautiful, and I would love to continue it. 

It's kinda beautiful today. 

I really like playing shadow play with my cat, it's amusing to see her chase my shadow finger across the floor and try and gnaw on it.

I have a couple things i need to do today, and I'm waiting for some rough trade to get updated so I can read new chapters. 

I am Grateful: 7/23/2017

Jul. 24th, 2017 12:42 am
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Yesterday was a very awesome day.  I experienced something that was awesome, beautiful and humbling.  I also did some cleaning and decluttering.

I am grateful for and love the farmer's market.  I love getting up early on Sundays to go to market.

I am grateful for and love my neighborhood.  Riding my bike through the streets is really beautiful.

I am grateful for and love myself.  I love the feeling of being comfortable in my own skin, and listening to my heart.

I am grateful for and love my cats.  I love playing with them in the shadows, or messing with them in the morning.

I am grateful for and love my home.  I love having the windows open, and experiencing the day's sounds and smells at different times.  It's really interesting out the scent of the day changes with the time.

I am grateful for and love my transportation.  It's really awesome that I live in area the provides different options of travel.  I can walk, ride my bike, drive my car, or ride the bus.  It's truly awesome to have those options.

I am grateful for and love the people in my my life.  It's really great to be able to depend on people, and not worry that they will let you down when you need them.

I am grateful for and love doing an Oracle reading in the morning. I love that it helps look at an aspect of what is going on, that I may not have considered.

I am grateful for and love home cooked food, especially when it's made for me.  I had duck last night, it was really good.  I had duck, potatoes, salad, goat cheese, and a cherry pistachio dessert, it was a special kind of awesome.

I am grateful for and love the opportunity to be alone.  I tend to clean better when I don't have to move around or worry about my roommate being home.

I am grateful for and love the presents waiting for me when I get home.  I ordered 2 more Oracle Decks, 3 coloring books, and a calendar, which were all delivered while I was out yesterday.  Coming home to presents was awesome.

Fear Questions: 7/23/2017

Jul. 22nd, 2017 10:48 pm
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When did we begin to fear those around us?  When did we begin to fear the government?  When did we begin to fear our Law Enforcement?  When did we begin to fear ourselves?  Where did it come from?  When did it begin to change our society?  When did the fear of what might happen, become a good enough reason to act on it?  When did fear become a way of life?  When did we let it start to control our actions?

Fear of offending someone.   Fear of being seen as a hateful person.  Fear of being seen as greedy.  Fear of being seen as different.  Fear of being seen as a threat.  Fear of being seen as ...  what?  When did we let fear control our actions, our words, our deeds?   When did we let our fear become a part of who we are?

When?  It's always been there in the back of our mind?  In the front of our mind? 

A couple weeks ago, I saw a story on the news in passing.  It was about law enforcement responding to a call of a crime being committed.  In the process they ran across a black man.  The first respondents recognized him as one of their own, and asked him to come slowly towards them.  In the meantime another officer arrives, and somehow ends up shooting this off duty officer in the arm, because he felt threatened.  What?

When did law enforcement start seeing us as a potential threat?  When did it happen?  Has it always been there hidden under the surface?  When did our society start seeing each other with such fear and aggression?

About a week ago we had a police shooting here in Minneapolis.  A young woman had called 911 to report a possible assault in her alley.  The respondent officers were in the process of patrolling the alley when she had approached the vehicle, and ended up some how shot through the abdomen, and died at the scene.  We don't know quite what happened.  The officer that shot her isn't talking, their body cams were not on, neither was the vehicle cam, the last we've heard they are looking for a bicyclist that had rode past.

We had another police shooting last year I believe a young man driving in a car, who was shot multiple times, and died of his wounds.   The officer was let go, and put on trial for murder, and the verdict was not guilty. 

How many police shootings are a result of an officers fear for their life and safety?  How many deaths at an officer of the law's hands can be attributed to their fear response?  When did it become acceptable in our society to kill as easily? 

We've had mass shootings, and we say that they are unacceptable, but we eat them up and show the News organization that this is news, and we want more. We've demanded that our law enforcement step up to the plate and protect us.  Is this a consequence of that decision? 

Sometimes I can't help but think that the news is part of the problem.  Everybody watches, reads, and listens to the news.  The news reports the bad, the ugly, the deadly, the horrible every day, multiple times, repeatedly, day in and out, all day and all night, and people watch it, listen to it, and read it all day, everyday, and all night long.  Is it a wonder we fear our neighbors?  Is it a wonder why we fear law enforcement, and they respond to that fear? 

How do you propose we change this?

I am Grateful: 7/22/2017

Jul. 22nd, 2017 10:00 pm
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So this is a mixture of this morning and yesterday's Gratefuls.   Mainly because I'm pretty sure I'm not going to remember this mornings grateful moments tomorrow morning. 

So this morning is Sunday, and here in Minneapolis the Farmer's Market Season is in full swing.  I spend good money on good food there. On the way back from the market I scented wood.  I'm not sure if it was cedar or pine, but it's that new wood kinda smell that fills the house when you get some thing that has the unfinished smell of it.  It was spectacular.  Then as I turned and went up another road, some was cooking bacon.  yum!

I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love the opportunities that life presents.

I am grateful for and love the Nature around me.

I am grateful for and love my abundance and prosperity.

I am grateful for and love the cats.

I am grateful for and love the people in my life.

I am grateful for and love the scents of a new morning.

I am grateful for and love the new possibilities of a new day.

I am grateful for and love my bed.

I am grateful for and love my new charcoal burner.

Yesterday was a really warm day.  It was a wonderful day.  I was booked solid at work, and it was abundant and prosperous.  I  got to play with the cats.  I was able to do an evening meditation.  I was able to meet some random people.  It was a good day.

All is well in my world.

Job Hunting....

Jul. 22nd, 2017 08:29 am
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It's been a great deal of time since I have done job hunting as a primary means of job outside of my chosen field.  I find myself a little confused, but realizing that I may need to step out of the mold to find the ideal position or job that I am looking for.  I know what I want, which means I need to start looking at options.  But the options I've been seeing online are not really appealing to me.   Mainly because these are positions I've looked at as a part time position to work with Massage, and they were easy.   I don't know that I am looking for easy right now.  I am looking for something that will be engaging.  I am looking for something that I can enjoy and be happy doing.  Since I am stepping away from Massage as my primary bread maker, and changing course to work in field that I have little presence in it's a bit daunting.   But I know I can do it.  I know that I will know when I find it.  But do I still turn in applications or resumes at places I don't have a desire, or a desire because they are easy.  Because actual job hunting, putting resumes out there, and being active, shows the Universe that I am looking, and my energy is focusing on a new position. That is a question?

hmmm

I am Grateful: 7/21/2017

Jul. 21st, 2017 08:26 pm
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love my home.

I am grateful for and love my bed.

I am grateful for and love my days off.

I am grateful for and love retail therapy.

I am grateful for and love the people in my life.

I am grateful for and love the Nature around me.

I am grateful for and love my Calendar.

I am grateful for and love diva cups.

I am grateful for and love thermal curtains.

Yesterday was a pretty cool day.  I practiced some retail therapy and bought some oracle decks and adult coloring books from amazon, did some grocery shopping, and went to blick arts for some colored pencils.  It's was a really productive and fun day.

I am Grateful: 7/17/2017

Jul. 18th, 2017 08:45 am
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love the people in my life.

I am grateful for and love the teachers in my life.

I am grateful for and love the Nature around me.

I am grateful for and love my cats.

I am grateful for and love a random stop of Ice cream on 90* heat day.

I am grateful for and love early morning walks.

I am grateful for and love the natural spring that I get drinking water from.

I am grateful for and love my bed.

I am grateful for and love my car.

Man, last night was spectacular.  I went down to Le Sueur for my Psychic Development class.  Which that in itself was awesome.  But the light show from the storm that moved through Minneapolis area last was AWESOME.  I had to catch myself, because my instinct was "beat the storm", but I had looked at the map, and knew that was not possible.  So I just set cruise control, and watched the light show, all the way home.  Made time go by pretty quick.  I love storms.  Seriously love the storms.

Good Morning: 7/17/2017

Jul. 17th, 2017 11:13 am
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I decided last night that I would get up this morning when I woke up. Which was 5:33 am this morning, before the Sun was awake. But I went with it. I relaxed for a bit, then I got up, made my bed, did my daily oracle spread, and got dressed for a walk. It was a beautiful Morning walk. It wasn’t too hot or muggy, and hardly anyone was up and walking around at 6 am.
Sometimes I’ll sit in the park and meditate with breathe. Sometimes I’ll bring my camera, and take pictures. Sometimes I’ll do both. It’s my time. My time away from the apartment. My time away from the daily “this,this,this”. My time away to be present within me, and listen to some of the thoughts, and think if I have enough to form a blog post out of them. Not so much today…except wow, I should do this more often, no one is awake and moving right now :).
Though some questions came up today:
  • How we bring about positive change when we come from a place of anger, frustration, or hate?
  • What would happen if no matter what the response from the other side, “protesters” came from and remained in a place of love, compassion & peace?
  • How would the message change?
  • How would the experience change?
The answers weren’t forthcoming this morning, but the questions were there. So I continued walking, taking pictures, and enjoying the morning.


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I hope every one has an awesome Monday!  Take it in stride, no matter what the Universe is throwing your way, around you, below you, above you, etc.  Breathe, let go, allow, let flow.

I am Grateful: 7/16/2017

Jul. 17th, 2017 09:29 am
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love my home.

I am grateful for and love cloudy weather.

I am grateful for and love Mint.

I am grateful for and love music.

I am grateful for and love my written intents.

I am grateful for and love metro transit.

I am grateful for and love Aldis.

I am grateful for and love my cats.

I am grateful for and love my bullet journal.

I had a wonderful blah day.  I stayed at home and surfed, cooked dinner, and at sugar all day long.  :)

I am Grateful: 7/14/2017

Jul. 16th, 2017 09:07 pm
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I am grateful for and love short workdays.

I am grateful for and love brick buildings.

I am grateful for and love my intuition.

I am grateful for and love my cats.

I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love my home.

I am grateful for and love my clients.

I am grateful for and love my car and bike.

I am grateful for and love my fan.

I am grateful for and love my music.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.  I caught it just right and was able to close all the windows in the apartment and turn on the fans, thus remaining cool.  But I also spent about 4 hours coloring.

I am Grateful: 7/14/2017

Jul. 15th, 2017 08:06 am
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love my bike.

I am grateful for and love my cats.

I am grateful for and love my bed.

I am grateful for and love the weather.

I am grateful for and love my blog.

I am grateful for and love my music.

I am grateful for and love my shakes.

I am grateful for and love the metro transit.

I am grateful for and love meditations.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.  After work, I ran a couple errands, had some sugar (not pmsing, I have no idea what you are talking about), and took a ride out to get some bananas.  It was a beautiful evening.

Work today.

Jul. 14th, 2017 05:57 pm
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I had one client today.  After that client I worked till 4, except for that one client, all unpaid work. 

S scheduled a client for a 60 min session without asking.  Which means since she didn't ask, I won't go over my available time. Which means unless I called that a couple people on the schedule for that day, that client would have had a short session.  Not her fault, but the fault of the front desk.  I have asked, told, demanded, etc for them to respect my available time.  To respect my client's available time.  Every time they behave, and then they start up again.  No More. I am so done now.  If I wasn't already tired of the direction of where I am going, I certainly am now. 

A 60 min massage is by default a 75 min block of time.   This individual was scheduled at 12:30, which would mean she's done at 1:45.  I am off, done for the day at 1:30.  In order for her to have her full time and for me to be out of the office when we close, she needs to be there no later than 12:20.

Which meant I had to change my schedule a bit.  I called the previous appt before hers, and asked if he could come in 5 min early, and I adjusted his 105 (90) min session to 100, and called the 12:30 appt and LM stating that they needed to be in by 1220 for her to have the full session time.

This is not unusual.  This happens everyday to a multitude of therapists at work.  And we ask, demand, and tell them not to, and they continue to do it.  I have standards.  I have to say, I've worked for one of the Massage Envy wannabes and they didn't do this. 

I am Grateful: 7/13/2017

Jul. 14th, 2017 09:24 am
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I am grateful for and love myself.

I am grateful for and love cool summer days.

I am grateful for and love less humid days.

I am grateful for and love music.

I am grateful for and love my alone time.

I am grateful for and love coloring.

I am grateful for for and love crazy cats.

I am grateful for and love my work.

I am grateful for and love little blessings.

I am grateful for and love water.

I steam cooked some salmon last night with fried veggies.  The Salmon was from Ikea, and the veggies from the farmer's market and Fresh Thyme. It was very delicious.

Ah Life...

Jul. 13th, 2017 10:29 pm
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So Changes are a foot.  I am actively looking for both a new job and eventually a new place to live.  I am actively looking for a one bedroom apartment to move in to by this time next year.  I am actively looking for a job outside of my current career path so that I can support myself, pay off my school debt, continue my education, and pay the rent.  This of course means that I am will not be practicing Massage in the focus I have in the last several years.  Mainly I am a bit tired, and I need a break.  I don't have a strong desire to work in the Massage industry and not be paid a living wage anymore.  I am consciously and unconsciously moving my clients to other therapists, that can take really good care of them.  They are my primary concern outside of my self, my clients need good therapists to take care of them.  Ones geared towards their needs.

Ultimately I want to help people who are ready to take the next step, then the next step, and further to continue in their healing.  I am not fond of being a stop gap or a band aid anymore.  I have the most satisfaction and excitement in a session or after a session when I see my client advancing and understanding what is going on.  Taking an active role in their healing, and not a passive role.  In order to get to this place it's going to require some patience, my learning cap, and the freedom to be flexible.  It also means that I have to active in my healing and changing as well.  It can't be the pot and kettle anymore in the passive, it needs to be active.

I am already instigating changes into my life.  I know these changes will ultimately bring profound change and challenges. Some of them will be awesome, some may be startling, some of them I may fight, but overall these are changes I want to make.  They may be easy, they may be hard, they may be a walk in the park, they may be a mountain climb, but in the end and the beginning it's all how I choose to look at them. 

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